♥ Thursday, February 24, 2011
Suddenly, i felt damn emo. thus another blog post. I ought to be shot dead lah, cos it isnt much of a big deal just that i felt like ranting a little here.
This sat marks me&sh's monthsary, we have been together for 1yr8mths and is still counting. And mon marks our 3rd monthsary as husband&wife. I wanted to have a lil celebration cos of the fact that we haven celebrate any monthsaries or anything else for like 8 mths ? ok mayb got 1 year also. cos i seriously cant rmb when was the last time we did celebrate anything together. ohh. mayb his suppose to be "surprise" birthday gathering. even so, he didnt appreciated wad i did.
I still rmb him promising to acc me to USS on my birthday but cos he had class from 12pm-3pm so we decided to go on another day but still celebrate my bday with me. FYI, we were just frens.. de night before my birthday i was totally wasted. drunk to de extent i dun rmb much of what happened that night. his fren send me to his place instead of mine.. so, i spent de night at his place.
Morning came and i rmb i did puke on his bed, and he actually cleared everything before he left for sch. soon after, i cleared up and prepared to head home. I know i didnt want to leave, and i did ask him to acc me after sch but he told me he had agreed to go to his fren's hotel party which kindda make me hate his fren alot. HAHA! I had hangover the whole day and didnt had much to eat.
I dunno why, but just when i felt we are close.. sth will come and trigger my emo-ness. Yes, i feel fortunate to have a husband that actually cares for me&my son but den yet i envy the fact of what other couples be it married or not do have. I mean human is like that right ? when we have a we want b.. ): So, its like i wanna have some time with him like dating... but he told me this " exam is here, need to study " its like WTF?!?!?!?! he can study awhile and spend de rest of his time playin games and den when his fren ask him over to their place to MJ he can go over but yet when i just ask him to acc me watch a movie and have lunch at a place i want to he told me he got to study ?
Seriously, Im tryin to be strong thus i told him nvm. but honestly, im like crying.. I am still young leh! i still wanna have those sweet lil treats from guys also mah! for my case i want it from him. (obviously cos i love him and he is my hus) but i doubt he knows and i didnt want to say much to actually force him into doing so, cos that isnt what he wanted and i dun wanan use force. so, Im like emo emo now and decided to rant here. cos he reads my twitter and doesnt read my blog already. so i guess this is de best place where i can type out how i really feel.
Im sure pregnancy is playing its part for letting me feel this way. OH GOD! i hope i still can be happy so that bbtai wont be a cry baby like his mum. )':
Loved ♥