Been bloghopping for the whole morning. Reading all the mummy that had given birth to their child. The pain they had to go thru seems to freak me out. Im starting to doubt myself if i can tahan de pain. I used to think im not very afraid of pain, but as time goes by.. i realise how i can tolerate pain. Im scared yet excited for babytai's arrival. i hope the pain would be as bearable as those gastric pain i had that made me not being able to move from de bed. if the pain is more painful den dat think i wont be tough enough to go thru natural birth without epidural. anyway. its about 5 mths time. Want to say its long also not very long. Cos im already into my 5th mth liao. and it feels as thou i just found out about my pregnancy last week :s ohwell, for now.. babytai's kicks are the motivation i have to go thru this (: and of cos my hubby's love towards us. i love it alot when he would snuggle me up and wanting to feel babytai's kick. until now, babytai seem to not want to kick very much when his father wanna feel him. hahaha ! shall wait for the right time. I took half day today.. most prob will go Vivo with my colleague. shall grab lunch and do some shopping there. (:

I would very much want to upload photos into my blog. but den i look seriously damn chui now. Reason 1- i look like a haggard. 2- my short hair is startin to be wavy and its quite thick ! makin me look uglier. oh well, i dun really care much of my looks now. i shall wait till babytai is out. i need rebonding + dying of my hair. the state my hair is in. TERRIBLE! mayb before cny i shd get another trim done. to layer my hair more. its really damn thick. making my hair look untidy and all. will start growing my hair (: i love long locks. but cos im feeling hot recently thus i decided to cut it till my shoulder length :x i shall not do this stupid stunt again !

shall do a quick update since i got to wait for my dear colleague. its new year day in 3 days time. and i still dunno how am i gg to celebrate new year eve. damn sad right ? what to do ? pregnant woman cant do alot of things :( on a brighter note, our Genting/KL trip will be next week ! damn fast lo.. My dear boy paid for my tickets&accomodation toooo ! LOVE him ttm. Cant wait to go there relax & stuff myself with foodie !!! thou my lil boy have to suffer. he cant get to eat his fav PORK! hahahahahaha ! oh well, stuff him with seafood ? and ice creams !!! yum meh... okie i shall stop talkin about foodie makin me hungry -.- anyway i kindda have my new year resolution done. #1: I do hope that for the next 4 mths i would be able to endure and give birth to babytai and of cos he must be healthy #2: I wanna be a good mother&wife to both my BIGboy&LiLboy. #3: To be able to think more like an adult and stop being childish. #4: STOP all my scary spendings and save it for my LiLboy. #5: and that my family would be healthy&happy for the year of the RABBIT 2011 !!!

Last night, JY bbm-ed me. I finally boooked my cny nails appt liao. muahahaha ! for this year, im gonna spend a little more its expensive but den this has always been my passion sth i love. and now, i cant have long and pretty nails with cutie 3D items. I dun wanna scratch my boy with those. so ya, no more pretty nails for like 5 years ? JY was sayin that i haven try her hello kitty, so i was thinkin how about CNY hello kitty hehe^^ i dunno how it gonna look like but i trust her. shall get melody toooo ! rabbit year mah. will take a photo of it after im done (:

Babytai turns 5 mth today. he has been in my tummy for 20 weeks. cant believe time pass sooo fast. Anyway it was christmas over the weekend i wonder how every1 spent it. for me, it wasnt much.. I took half day on fri, thus i headed to town got some pressy and continue to walk walk. poker with the guys at night. den come sat, stayed home for the whole day till night time. we went to chervon for karaoke. with the same group of ppl mostly were drunk that night. slept only at 4 am. me&SH totally rested for de whole of yesterday. we were basically, sleeping, watchin tv, playin game, and more sleeping. i slept the most, but surprisingly i could still sleep at night. imagine how lazy i can get. hahaha ! but SH couldnt sleep, so when i woke up at 4am i think. he was still awake, and he asked if i wanted supper. -.- i was like sooo tired can ?! still supper.... den he say he can bring me to geylang. i was like. nah. its okie. i rather sleep. now my poor boy is sooo tired. and he has to work. oh well, for the family. he has to tahan. anyway, im still sooo tired despite sleeping sooo much. ): babytai seems to make me feel more lazy and tired ever since i had him. i hope after giving birth, i will have the energy again. theres nth much to update. im lookin forward to my genting trip next thurs. (:

edited: sorry for the delay of photos. 1 photo was taken de week before another is done just 5 mins ago (: See if you can see de difference. cos to me, i can see my tummy got rounder. but i still dun look preggy from de back ! -.- and ppl still stares at my bump when i board bus or mrt. dunno wads wrong with ppl nowadaes.

Im gonna rant alittle here. was abit bored thus i started hopping onto frens blog. read a post and i felt quite offended ( I know the post isnt for me, but cos i am in de same situation as what you had mentioned kindda make me feel offended ). Firstly, Im sure my future isnt ruin just cos i have babytai in me. #02, i cant be 100% sure that my husband will be the 1 for me. but at least he did changed for a better and is treatin me&babytai good. #3, Yes, we did broke up but we got back before realising babytai in me. AND only close frens know how hard was it for us to actually decide on this path. fyi- MS didnt want to marry me nor have this baby. he wanted me to abort it ok ?! do you know how devastated i was? but still im glad he changed his mind about everything. #4, I had plans for my future even before i was preggy but i had to delay everything cos to me now babytai means the world. you are not a mother yet, so you may not understand how it feels. and dun say you wanna abort your child even if you "kenna" cos abortion=killing. plus its your blood and flesh. go think about it before sayin it out. *this isnt an offendin post. i just feel you dun understand what is it like to be in our(young mummies)'s shoe*

edited : oh ya, fyi. i didnt update any1 much about myself ever since my marriage so i was much confused over the sms you sent. you claimed you are updated unlike me. but how can some1 update you about me when i dun tell any1 about myself ?! and like i mentioned this isnt an offending post neither am i tryin to pick a fight with you. im just letting you know more. oh well, you haven been to this stage.. being a wife/daughter in law and mother is far worst den being some1's gf only. The responsibilities you have to take up.

haven been blogging for quite a no. of days. PS! i actually took a photo of my tummy last week, but am too lazy to upload it when im home :x wil try to do so tml alright ? Gonna catch Tron at Suntec, heard lotsa good reviews for the show. Excited ttm. and after movie We would be heading for his fren's bbq. hopefully i will eat enough for dinner (: and i really hope my hair wont smell :x cos i hate washin my hair at night, esp since im preggy now.

LALALA!! its thursday already... I SMELL WEEKENDS! I cant wait to sleep and not wake up till noon time. hehehe^^ My boy would be headin to Zouk tonight and me stayin home (: shall have some alone time with babytai. haven been talkin to him lately :x hahahaha ! anyway, i had a conversation with a fren's gf which turned out to be quite a close fren. Christmas is coming, and it reminds me of christmas last year. De surprise he gave me, and as much as i would like to forget de pain i had given him. I still hate myself up to this date for hurtin him, so how can he just pretend nth went wrong and not hate me right ? but he could.. he showed me his love, care and concern for me&babytai. Since the time we parted, I nv once imagine us walkin down the aisle together hand in hand. Everything seems like a dream. Often, i asked myself. wad if i decided to let go of him and all these nv happen, what if the father of my child was another guy, what if he was not the guy that was beside me that night and mayb among de guest. I kept asking myself all these what ifs.. and yet i get no ans. mind me but i love to question things. wanting to know what if i had made another decision and all. dun be mistaken, i am happy being with him but just wanna know what if i decided to be with another guy when we had broke up. would all these still happened ? or would everything changed ? will FATE still bring us back together ? haha ! im a very "why" person. and i hope my little boy wont follow mummy's footstep. shdnt let him watch de " 1000 whys " show. i cant really rmb de title of the cartoon but im sure its cos of that show i keep questionin myself. hahah! actually i dun have much to blog. cos my babyboy isnt moving much and im like doing the same thing every single day. wake up at 7.50 leave hse at 8.15 reach office at 9 and home at 7pm dinner relax and watch show at 9pm and sleep at 10. this is like my daily routine EVERY SINGLE DAY! boring life of an office lady. oh well. just wanna add words into my blog. see liao also happy. mind me ahh. hahahaha ! shall post a photo of my tummy tonight or tml (:

2nd day of work for this week. had taken half day leave for 24 & 31 dec just cos i dun have the mood to actually work. :x and next mth leave on the 7th cos i will be leaving for KL on the 6th (: Im sooooo looking forward to it. eatin & shopping. muahahaha. dunno got energy not. Anyway SH will be gg to Zouk this thurs for his sch's stuff. dunno what they call it. SH wanted to ask me go. but thinkin that i have to work on fri, i decided not to go and let him have fun on his own. So, for thurs it will be de first night that i will be home without SH. hopefully i will be tired early, den can sleep early. so i wont be like worried or anything :x i cant blog much today as i need to settle some deco stuff for our company lunch next week. tired lo. still make me do such stuff -.-

Back to work again :/ sibei sian sia. dragged myself out of bed today. as usual asked myself if i can go on mc :x hahaha ! im sucha lazy ass now. Shall start blogging about my weekend (: had a last min MJ session with SH's frens,first time playing by myself and i still won $12 lo. hehe^^ played till 1+am reached home only at 2am. bathed but still didnt felt tired so me and SH watched despicable me. i watch halfway den fell asleep :x woke up early on sat, like 8am lo ! super early. tried to back to sleep but couldnt until 10.30 and i have to wake up at 11am to prepare cos we will be heading to GoodWoodsPark hotel for SH's sis birthday treat. after lunch we headed to buy 4D cos i kept dreamin of this no. 157. so i thought of buyin 0157. walked to luckyplaza bought 4D for sat and sun. Headed to ION to view my Samantha thavasa outlet ! muahaha. mad love their stuff, but the bags that they bring to SG de colours sibei dull lo. like black, nude, white, pale pink. etc. whereas in JAP they have colours like tiffany green, babypink, summer yellow etc etc.. i love such colours. very act cute but it really brighten up my day leh. SH and MIL acc me there, walked around feeling damn disappointed :x and den i went to the petite corner where they sell accessories and wallets. started browsing.. and sth caught my eye this hot pink wallet. it was a long wallet, and i dun really like having long wallets cos sometimes it can get abit irritating. started to find for a shorter 1. but i couldnt find it in the colour i wanted, SH asked me to get the salesperson and ask about it. and she went to find lo. de moment i saw the wallet my eyes like open damn big smiling all de way liao. :x muahaha ! i believe SH's mum saw it or mayb cos she wanted to get me sth after since she won quite alot in 4d with me&sh's ROM no. she wanted to get me LV bag but den i dun like LV and dun see any bags i like so far. I haven change my wallet thou, wana change only next year (: we continue to shop until 5+ den walked back to Hyatt as our Car was parked there. change into spects and headed to Kane's place for MJ session again. played till 1am. was mad tired so quickly bathed and head to bed. den yesterday, didnt do much as SH decided to stay home cos we haven been home for quite long liao :x haha ! so, we only went JP for lunch cos i wanna get a haircut and ya my hair is at sh0ulder length now. very xin tong lo. but den my long hair has been irritating me cos i get damn hot easily now, so thought of getting sth short that wont make me irritate myself. home after that, rested till dinner time. and thats wad make me sibei sian about. like i mentioned i bought 0157. and yesterday's 4d 2nd price 7510 ! my mil won $4 while cos i bought only 0157 i win nth! sibei sian ttm lo ! 6k leh!!!!!! ohwell, guess that money isnt for me lah. ): told myself not to buy 4D liao. got lucky no. tell ppl can liao. they win they sure treat me 1. muahahaha ! not bad eh.. :x ok lah. shall end this post with a photo of my new wallet. i just love the colour of de wallet. soooo pretty lo !

Its Friday already. *skipping around* I love the fact that weekends is here, I just hate workin lah. Sibei lazy now :x every morning i wake up asking if i can take mc. hahaha ! but i still drag myself to work. Anyway, we will be celebrating SH's sis birthday tml. gonna head to Goodwoods hotel for jap buffet. I know im not suppose to eat too much sashimi, shall try to control. hehe^^ and if SH dun need to go to work after lunch i shall head to ION's Samantha Thavasa. Mad love their cute stuff. mayb can like get a christmas gift for myself. But i doubt i will, needa start giving angbao to parents for their birthday and all. Angbao for SH's sis, Angbao for my mum, Lunch/Dinner treat for both SH's parents. cos their birthday all falls in Jan T.T den comes feb, I wonder if i need to give angbao.. cos some tradition dun need to give for the first year only 2nd year onwards. so i hope dun need to give yet. no bonus means no extra $ how to give angbao right ? :x ohwell, shall see wad SH has to say bah. (:

Its finally Thursday (: 1 more working day and the weekend is here. Everyday, I look forward to the weekend. cos im like sooo lazy to work now. all i wanna do is sleep and nua around. :x oh well, for babytai must tahan lo. Airtickets for Genting/KL trip have been booked. im uber happy now. wanna get my ass out of singapore like NOW! will be gg to genting from 6-8jan den 8-9jan will be gg to KL. gonna eat&shop till i drop :x am still considering how much i shd change and all. mayb change alittle bit den bal use SH's $. muahahahah XD it would be my last holiday before babytai is out. Am looking very forward to it. (:

Edited : Decided to add in a photo of my tummy. so for friends that are interested, do come back on every week. shall try to do it a weekly thing. so as to see the growing process of my boy (:

I decided to take some time off work and blog alittle.

Im sooo glad de wedding is over, and i could finally concentrate on my little boy. okie. i shall blog alittle bit about my pregnancy from start.

For the first mth of pregnancy i totally didnt suspect anything cos i thought i was still have puberty thats why im eatin sooooo much (-.- i know). hhahaha ! and so, cos i didnt had my mens in july i thought it was totally normal (fyi, my mens dun come every mth 1) and so, it didnt bother me until my aug mens also didnt come.

I wasnt bothered at first, but frens kept pressuring me to go take a test to be sure. Honestly, I still didnt want to waste my $ buyin a pregnancy kit thou it cost only 10$ :x but still i went to do it cos i wanted to prove to my frens that im not pregnant :x so on 20th September i went to clementi with my colleague just to get a kit to test. took de test and i started to clean up and all. den suddenly i saw 2 lines which means im pregnant.

I totally freaked out. honestly, i wasnt expecting to see de 2nd line. and so, i started shivering. de first thing that came to my mind was " what am i gg to do? ", " will MS wan to take responsibility? ", " how am i to tell my mum about this? " and bla bla bla. my mind was in confused state.

Cos that 2 mths when me & SH broke up i went clubbin every week. and got myself damn drunk EVERY SINGLE WEEK! so imagine the alcohol intake i took :x thank GOD he kept babytai safe in me (:

Firstly, I wanna say MS isnt the type dat dun take responsibility. its just that we just got back together for like 1 week plus and den suddenly tellin him he is the father ? Im glad i didnt anyhow went around sleepin with diff guys. or else i think i will panick as in who the father of my child is :x my colleague went to get another pregnancy kit for me just to be sure. while i started calling JY. her ans was ABORT. she kept sayin me and ms is not stable and all. but i was determined to keep de baby. I dunno why for that moment i didnt think of the giving birth pain and all. and was like so k-kiang wanna give birth to babytai even if ms dun wan de baby :x

had a discussion with MS, and that night he brought me to NUH suppose to see a gynae but the person was not around. took another pregnancy test and it was positive. 3 test and all positive how to be wrong right ?

we booked an appt with KKH on wed 22Sept2010. went to scan the baby and we saw a fetus, which means 100% liao. when i saw babytai's heartbeat i was like "awwww. theres a living thing in me." Told his parents about it, can see they were disappointed lah. but they kept asking if MS really wants this baby and all. Den, MS sis wanted to talk to us. She also asked MS to think it through if he wants to keep de baby and all. but of cos he cant take too long lah.

I was soooooo afraid he didnt want to keep de baby lo. and so, he thought it thru till fri. den we went to tell my mum. I was like soooooo bloody scared. all my frens were scared for me. cos my mum is the traditional type. how to accept this fact right ? but lucky MS was with me and he did most of the talking. HE WAS BRAVE~ and so, told my mum and of cos kenna say by her lah. but things already happen, theres nth much we can do about it and since we already decided to get married and all.

Thats when all the marriage preparation started.. and I started to have morning sickness and all. VERY BAD kind. but still, am glad its over (: I still cant believe i planned my wedding within 1 and a half mth with my BAD morning sickness and still everything went well. of cos SH helped alot. without him i would had broke down lo. im already in my 4th mth. and can feel babytai moving and his little kicks. its fun to actually feel him, but at the same time if he keeps moving i will feel pain. OH Well, its a kind of experience that most woman have to go thru. I kept telling myself if others can do it, I can too. I hope this will give me the strength to actually go thru my whole pregnancy (:

Im super lazy to blog nowadaes. mayb due to babytai making me feel so tired and restless. Anyway. will upload photos only when im not tired :x if not photos can be view on fb (: will start to add up babytai's edd and all (:

Edited: Photos at the side at top have been changed. sth simple but yeah dun need to be too complicated i guess :x anyway, babytai's edd and all is also updated. lets look forward till his arrival (:

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