1 last post before i happily leave the office (:
Gonna head home to prepare a surprise birthday card for this babe.
A last min thingy.. oh well. i will be happy to see 1 more person smiling.
will post the photo of the end product soon !
Catching "Grown Ups" at JP tonight.
hopefully it would be a good show.. Am lookin forward to it.
and so, Weekend is here again.
Im sure it gonna be a blast (:
with sooooo many activities lined up.
oh ya. Last night I went to Bugis with my Colleague, Pamela
such a nice babe. treated me to 2 cups of koi.
and i treated her to ILOVETAIMEI.
we had kway chup for dinner. and had sooo much to talk about.
guess cos we are of same age ?
I desperately need a part time job soon.
I want all these thinkings to be buried away. and that i would have more moo lah.
feeling super poor already.
i wanna buy sooo many pretty clothes but resisted ):
aww. I wanna head to Forever 21 soooooon.
thou i usually dun get anything from there. but i looooove browsing thru.
Anyway i got like sooo many BC & HH loots that had not arrived.
so im tryin to control my spending and not get anything for myself.
unless me Daddy gives me a BIG red packet for my birthday.
if not. im gonna TRY TO CONTROL! (:

Awww.. Its Thursday already.
This week pass in a breeze.
finished all my shitty work yesterday.
So yes i can prepare for the weekends. YAY!
this week seem to be 1 busy week for me.
had to do so many invoices and clearing all docs to prepare for monthend.
but im glad. PAYday is here.
Tml, hopefully me and JH could find a slot to watch GrownUp.
his been dying to watch that show.
after movies I may head over to BoatQuey for a drink with J.
still considering lar. I have a beer tummy already ):
Sat gonna head over to "his" place. Brunch at Shangri-La
Ippudo for dinner. and lastly the failed attempt surprise celebration.
hopefully everything goes smoothly.
Will try to get all photos in my camera and load it onto FB.
please be patience.. hahaha ! :x
Currently i have nth on. on Sun. But im sure sth will just pop up.
hahaha ! its like finally his birthday next week. and mine exactly 2 weeks from now.
May we be able to carry on and make a difference in our life (:
oh ya. to mention. I only have 1 Birthday wish this year...
and to all the celebrations i would be having.
i will just make this 1 wish.
but i wont be saying it out. cos i really wish it would come true (:

As I step into office today, I rmbed how much work I need to finish by end of today.
Chiong everything. didnt want to stay back just to complete all these.
Im finally done with all the shitty Cheques and invoices.
But its all these that makes me realise. Its Monthend again.
and its only Monthend that i would be soooo busy.
Aug is coming to an end. and normally for the past xx of years. i would have been happy.
like super happy. cos September, it actually means my birthday is reaching.
But for this year, somehow somewhat im not happy.
I didnt want to celebrate it even.
But i wanna meet up with frens i lose contacts with for soo many years.
I am not sure why such thinking is loitering in my mind.
It mayb cos, I feel old ? its like i have a HUGE responsibility over my life.
I have to think and plan of my future.
and i keep seeing strands of white hair growing.
Getting more and more paranoid about growing old :x
and den, comes the reason. I wanna celebrate it with him.
planned it. but yet, things seem to turn around.
I do hope my frens could replace him just for this year.
hopefully by next, i would have already found the "special" some1 (:
okie lar. enough of craps. shall continue with my shitty works.

Its tues. and im ultra tired.
due to last night's drinkin session.
reached home only at 2am - DRUNK!
but ya. decided to lessen all such activities.
I wanna club less and drink less.
so in order to do so. i agree to Pamela's request.
which is to find a part time job for the weekend and work for extra bucks.
I hope i could pull it thru thou.
the last time i worked for 1 mth without rest.
i got seriously sick.
hopefully with the not so heavy work i do on weekdays.
would do me good for the weekends !
I wanna save up for the followings :
-Macbook
-Studies
-Holiday trip to Aust and Taiwan.
If i could have this 3 wishes coming true. I would just love my life to the max. (:
wanna put all r/s problems aside.
I do feel lonely at times cos i wished that there is this special some1 to be there.
but ya, for now. i shd concentrate for my FUTURE !

Updates before i start my leave (:
and so last night after work i went straight home.
bought dinner and had a slooooow dinner.
its been so long since i actually stayed home for 1.
ppl that knows me well will know why.
Den at 8pm. got a call from JH.
he wanna catch the movie Aftershock.
We rushed down to Vivo at 8.30pm
got our tickets and headed to get dessert at the HK shop.
loooove the mango dessert there. i just love sweet stuffs. hehe !
had to rush alittle cos the dessert came late.
We went in just in time for the show.
its a not bad show i must say. cried in some of the scenes.
show ended. and we head for supper.
went home at 1am. was soooooo tired !
My morning started out well. until i received a bbm.
and i got all so emo again. I hope my day will get better.
tonight will be a GOOD GOOD night (:
Virgin Trip to Ladies night. hear soooo many comments and all
and yes, Im into Army guys now. esp Commandos. :x
i just loove to see guys in Uniform. haha !
shd be infected by seeing tooo many army guys last time.
ah well. Lets hope i can pull it thru the whole night (:

P.S: You were the cause that made the NOW me.
you knew i nv club alot. i would occasionally pester you to bring me.
but you know it deep down i wouldnt go if you didnt.
You asked me not to club & drink too much.
but have you ever asked WHY am i doing all these?
do you know how much pain you had inflicted me with ?
Let me just say it clearly.
I dunno if you rmb this, But at that moment of time. I was having some problems at home.
I told you I needed you by my side.
I wanted you to care for me. and just leave the break up aside till my home stuff are settled.
but yet, you didnt. day by day. you told me you wanna break up.
day by day you simply hurt me with the words that comes out from your mouth.
You assured me you will be there. AS A FREN.
you think i dun have enough frens to be there?
Honestly speaking, whether or not you are my fren. it doesnt really matter.
I needed you as a support, a PARTNER that is willing to be there.
you explained saying you were here.. I dunno how i shd explain this to you.
thus i came up with this.
I loved you with all my heart, I trusted you my life.
but you destroyed it. BOTH my heart and life.
NOTHING you do can change the fact of what had happened.
YOU actually scared me ! and to make it worst.
Im actually afraid to get into a r/s. As much as i would like to find another partner.
Im still afraid he will treat me like what you did.

Its Tuesday already ! YAY!
1 more working day and im gonna have my loooooong weekend (:
went home straight after work cos i was real tired.
Im quite busy despite me having my off.
Managed to psycho Rena to Phuture for tml night !
and on thurs i would be meeting James for movies and dinner.
but its to be confirm.
and on fri, I will be meeting Keith for Mac breakfast.
den gonna meet JH for dinner at town.
he needs a listening ear (:
A will be meeting us at a later timing.
Supper and Kite Flying !!
I pray that this time it wont be disrupted.
everytime i wanna fly kite sure got problem 1.
so ya, hopefully it wont rain and the dear boys would bring me there.
I feel like a little baby sister to them.
they always pamper me and let me decide on things.
but they always make fun of me -.-
Sat, i guess i wont be gg out early. meeting JH & A at night.
i rmb saying i boycott Rebel.
but ya, they managed to psycho me there for this weekend.
I pray it wont disappoint me.
its gonna be a long weekend with semi-packed schedules. (HAHA!)
so ya, hope everything will go as planned !
oh ya. to add on. Pamela-my colleague asked me if i wan to work on sat and sun with her.
She say it will do me good from all the thinkings i had.
i dunno if i shd. Im afraid i would break down if i were to work for 7days a week.
shd i or shd i not ?

I was glad you still cared. with those words that you said.
I will drink less. thou i know you said so as a normal fren.
but im more den happy already. ♥

Wanted to post this up. but nv seem to find the chance.
found this in 1 of the blog i would read. i enjoyed it. hope you guys would too.
(esp to the 1person I care the most. I wan to know that you are smiling more den emo-ing)

One day two very loving parents got into a huge fight,
the man called the women a “bitch” and the women called the man a “bastard”.
Their son walked in and said “What does bitch and bastard mean?”
and the parents replied “ladies and gentlemen”.
The next day the parents decided to have sex,
the women said “feel my titties” and the man said “feel my dick”.Their son walked in and asked “What does titties and dick mean?”
and the parents replied “hats and coats”.
On Thanksgiving the dad was shaving and he cut himself, “Shit” he said,
the kid came in and asked “What’s that mean”
and the man said it was the brand shaving cream he was using.
Down stairs the mom was preparing the turkey,
and she cut herself, “Fuck” she said.
Once again the kid asked “What’s that mean”
the mom said that is what she calls stuffing the turkey.
Then the door bell rang.
The kid answered the door to his relatives and said
“Alright you bitches and bastards, put your dicks and titties in the closet,
my dad is upstairs wiping the shit off his face,
and my mom is in the kitchen fucking the turkey!

Friday night was a night to rmb.
Drinking seems to be a weekly thing for me now.
and to those that knows me.
i would have said its the best thing to numb the pain im having.
and so, Friday I met JinHuan at JP.
wanted to have Mac for dinner, but the Mac was closed !
headed to have LJS instead.
after that we kindda walked to Arena Country Club.
Walked half way and JH was complaining. so we took a bus instead.
We started drinking.. till about 11.30pm. Arthur came to join us.
I cant rmb wad time we left. but JH & myself were too drunk.
Woke up early on Sat morning.
Packed my stuffs and headed out to meet Jonathan at Orchard.
Simun was otw there with YaLing.
so i met the girls for lunch at FEP.
we talked so much... parted ways about 2.30pm.
J and I walked to *Scape. while we were there we saw Click5
and i think 1 of the guy is urber cute !! dunno whats his name thou.
headed to Cine to collect our tickets.
I was so tired i told J i wanna sleep. haha !
slept for about 45mins. it wasnt enough. i was tooooo tired for the day
Watched Love in Disguise. A must watch show.. (:
its actually very funny ! ya. you saw it. its FUNNY! hahaha.
i was like beating J up. really bth. :x
After movies, i left for Vivo. needed to get cake for TianJie's birthday.
Bryan was at Carl's Junior thus i met him for alittle while.
Headed to Awfully Chocolate to get the cake i ordered.
Left for Sentosa. (:
Photos of the event will be up on fb pretty soon i hope :x
We had our little Foam party at the Personal Jacuzzi.
had lotsa fun.. and den Sun came.
Every1 was shagged out. Me and Christina headed to JP.
met up with JH and had PepperLunch for lunch.
First time eating it. and it tasted good.
will eat that again sooooon. haha !
headed home and slept for 4hrs.
watch alittle tv. A came to fetch me and JH to Chomp's
had supper and dessert. After that we head to Labrador Park.
Talked so much rubbish.
this 2 guys nv fail to make me laugh with their LAME jokes.
thou often they would make fun of me.
but ya, i still love their company..
reached home at 1.30am. wanted to sleep.
but turn and toss till 2.30 den i fell asleep :/
and today morning. i had a hard time waking up.
Lucky me, I still woke up in time. and came on time (:
will be working from Mon-Wed.
Thurs and Fri is my off day.. im like soooo happy !
gonna look forwad to my long weekend (:

I guess its really impossible between the 2 of us.
I wanted how much to be there when you needed some1.
but yet, i guess i would only fall deeper and hurt myself in the end.
I know you have made things clear.
that we cant be together and all. but i still hold on hoping that you would change your mind.
things started out fast, which is why im trying to slow everything down.
but when i found out you were like avoiding me.
i was kindda pissed. :x
didnt we agreed to take things slowly ?
why did everything turned out this way ?
i know you are not ready.
but ya. i guess this really put a full stop to everything.
I still hope we could be frens and all. (:
And please be strong!
(you shd know who you are. dun wanna put names)

Today is yet another busy day for me :/
Shall just do a little update before i start burying myself with those doc.
Went home after dinner last night.
watch a little tv, sms, bbm & msn..
all the conversation topic are about the same.
friends asking how am i. if i need a shoulder they are willing to be there and all.
i felt that they were really sweet to ask me once in awhile.
and willing to here all my rantings.
Dun ask me why but i loooove to rant.
be it work stuff, family stuff or even BGR stuff
am glad they dun get bored of it also. haha!
and so, last night i was smsing and bbming half way
but i guess i was soooo tired i fell asleep within 2 mins !
it took me 2mins to fall asleep.
woke up with a shock. had so many notification on my phone.
wasnt able to reply anything, de moment i woke up
but i browsed thru every single msg.
I know every single 1 of you, lovelies wants me to be strong.
to be able to stand up and be the little HAPPY me.
but its quite hard, esp since i always wanted to be loved.
to those that are close to me, I believe you would have know what happen when i was young.
and my family problems and all.
thus all these problems made me want some1 to love me.
i longed for all those love.
some asked me why am i so desperate ?
reason: you dunno how much and what i have been thru.
and theres a reason why i didnt want to say.
I dun need ppl to pity me. thus i only say to ppl i trust and feel comfortable with.
but ya, told myself to get the emo-ness out of me.
blog-emo fb-emo twitter-emo.
hahahaha ! i know every1 is bored of my emo-ness.
shall snap out of it okie ?
Miss Sunshine is coming back (thats what he always call me HAHA!)
Tml is friday already.. gonna go BQ with JH.
den Sat movies with J. At night gonna head to Sentosa with Weitian (:
Im so excited for my little weekend getaway.
thou its only Sentosa. but i haven really been there for a very long time already.
Midnight swimming has always been our Fav thing
when we are at Siloso Beach Resort.
But alll im praying is that i wont experience any weird stuff when im there.

The following post is posted cos i need a place to rant.
and i wanan rant out my anger..
Recently, I am able to keep my anger to myself.
but i would spam my blog,twitter&fb with all those anger-ness. HAHA!
and it does work. it actually makes me feel better (:
So ya, if you find it irritating/annoying. PLEASE EXIT!
thanks (:

Why is it that ppl love annoying me when im having a foul mood ?
Today didnt start out good.
woke up feeling totally moodless.
went to the bus stop waited for almost 20 mins before it came.
was later den usual.
Pamela&I walked faster into the building
i can just say we are damn suay !
of all time, Our BIG boss came :/
and he was behind us.
we told each other we were dead.
expected to get scolded already.
but ya, still hoping we wouldnt.
i had lotsa stuff to get done with.. and quickly got it done.
while doing so, i have ppl calling me to complain..
HELLO ?! if you wanna complain i dun mind listening.
but must you scold me ?
i dun owe you anything you know ?!
and so. my mood got worst upon receiving my lecture.
and now, i have that BITCH telling what me what im suppose to tweet.
HELLO! I want to tweet also must follow how you want me to tweet is it ?
you can just unfollow me if you dislike or find it annoying.
I dun really give a damn.
oh well. i just find it damn irritating to know that such ppl exist.
i hope everything would be better after i have my lunch later on..


edited:
Its funny how some ppl would take a r/s as a joke.
some1 told me this today.
his fren likes this guy and thinks she have fallen for him.
but in actual fact she is engaged and the guy himself is engaged to another girl.
I'm quite disgusted by such ppl.
why would you fall for some1 else if you have already decided to marry some1 ?
is getting divorce a simple thing to do ? just cos you dun like/love the other party ?
I think i will only feel this way just cos i got dumped recently.
thou he may not have left me cos of another party.
but den no1 knows lar. mayb he already had some1 in mind.
(thats what all my frens say)
Is Love still available on earth now ?
Is there couples that would stay truthful and faithful to each other?
I dun expect every1 to have a perfect r/s
but i guess its just not right to cheat on the other party.
I did it before, and felt sooooooo guilty that i swear it will nv happen again.
oh god, dun ppl have any guilt ?

I keep getting nagged for my banner aboved.
and so i decided to do a new banner.
did sth simple. but den my html screwed up.
and now. i cant seem to find my photo :/
so for the time being.
there wont be any banners.
haha ! will redo my whole blog skin soon soon !
tahan alittle (:

edited:
Thanks to my smartness :x
everything is back to normal.
im so glad. didnt want to spend 4 hrs on a blogskin again.
tiring ! but i still dunno why my banner is soo small.
but better den nth.

Its Friday Its Friday *skipping around*
Finally, A day i am looking forward to for the whole week.
thou party is cancelled im still gonna enjoy my weekends (:
anyway! I had a hair cut last night at Storm.
i find it super ugly, cos my hair is like super thin.
like some chao ah lian :x
but den every1 says it looks better make me feel more fresh.
and S mentioned i look sweeter. awww..
Gonna have a long weekend ahead.
and den will be having another good weekend next week !
oh what fun im gonna have at sentoooooosa !
i wanna catch the sun rise. so excited !
been years since i last saw 1.
MS used to say its stupid and boring.
but let me tell you, its ROMANTIC!
so YES, im gonna catch it. Some1 promised to wake me up XD
i believe aug is gonna end in a breeze.
cos i have so many things lined up. and very soon.
its my BIRTHDAY!
i cant believe i gonna turn TWENTY! makes me feel so old ):
but den im still looking forward to my TWENTY FIRST !
taiwan trip with the girls.
bet its gonna be a fun fun trip (:
i cant wait to go taiwan's club... TAIWAN guys are HOT! *drool..*
okie enough of all this shit.
Happy National Day PPL!
enjoy the fireworks with your loveones.
while for me, i shall enjoy it myself i guess ? :x
nah, i believe i will enjoy it with frens.

Edited:
decided to blog this. i know im bitching about some1 behind her back.
but ya, im pretty annoyed by your fb comments, twitter and i cant believe i actually read your blog.
my r/s have ended and i guess you are pretty much very happy.
I am doing well with my life. and you dun really need to care?
so what if im dating different guys everyday ?
is it of your concern ? and im really curious on why you keep bitchin about me.
is it cos you are so bored ? your life is pretty much boring ?
thus you start saying stuffs about me ?
i guess i shd be honored. haha !
1 thing i have learnt is that. with all these hurtful comments.
it made me stronger.
it made me to have determination.
and last but not least it actually made me move on.
Yes, and if you ever see this. and i mentioned IF den good.
cos you are 1 2 headed creature which is of cos SCARY!
but i often believe in karma. and im sure sth like this will happen to you.
All the best in dealing with it BITCH!

To those that comes here often.
did a little changes in my profile section.
you will notice sth is amiss.
i do hope to put up a new 1 soon (:
or mayb in a couple of mths time.
while for the banner on top.
i will try to figure out sth okie ?
i have stop thinking about him.
so don worry..
but i nv expect to remove it ever since i got it up.
wadeva lar. its the past. SAYONARA !
and HELLO to my future.
(hopefully things will work out)

Its funny how i could actually start talkin to him.
I still rmb 2 weeks ago. i was cryin and all.
but now, i can talk to him like a normal fren.
oh well. life goes on i guess.
Im still glad he is willing to talk to me.
and we could still be frens.
Our last trip to bkk is still unconfirmed.
due to the recent bombing at bkk, his parents are alittle scared.
and is monitoring the situation.
hopefully things will get better.
i need a break from singapore.
find the real me, and get me out of the misery.
im starting to pull myself together again.
to actually want to stand up and find my MR RIGHT
im not gonna give up just cos i failed.
and yes, im sure i changed so much after this r/s
THANK YOU TMS.
you were the 1 that make me did so much.
changed me so much.
from the little hot tempered baby to some1 that could understand things.
from the little fussy eater to some1 that dun mind tryin before disliking it.
from the little baby of me to some1 that could think like an adult.
ya. i guess this was the 3 major issue about me
that would made our r/s turned out this way.
i wont say i regret for not changing early. but would thank you instead.
at least you made me realise life is full of surprises.
i never knew this side of me would come.
but ya. love is a powerful thing.
hopefully i wont go back to the old me.
and my new r/s would get better. (:
Last but not least,
I still do not regret being with you even if i knew this was to happen.
THANK YOU VERY MUCH !
P.S: please at least tag/bbm me if you do read this. so that i know you read this post (:

I hate weekdays..
having the monday blues.
haven been feeling well since last night?
feel like puking and all.
but ya, hope it gets better..
gonna meet Val (:
like finally ! haven seen her since Jan i guess ?
cant rmb ! but super long !
gossip session, BGR talks...
oh well. miss those days.
tonight i gonna tell her sth..
sth she told me about myself.
and i cant believe she is so right about this.
lets hope she can give me a good advice about it.
lalala~ and im not tellin any1 about it.
hahahahaha !
wadeva lar. i just wanna get well (:

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