♥ Monday, October 25, 2010
Been neglecting this blog again. I do visit my blog like everyday, but i just dunno what to say. lotsa stuff has been in my mind recently. Its due to 1 mistake that Im having him for the rest of my life. I totally agree its a mistake, i feel im tooo young. I finally figured out what i wanted in life, what i wanna do for my future. and just 1 mistake of ours, everything have to be put to a side for the time being. Honestly, thou I really love him. I still regret. I regret for meeting up with him even thou we have broken up. I regret contacting him despite me avoiding him almost everyday. I did everything to try to forget about us, but it pain me alot. that r/s left a deep scar in me. I wanted to just go on with my life, and let you go on with yours. but yet de stubborn part of me wants you back. I know its too late to regret, and the fact that you ARE indeed treatin me much better den you did when we were together. But I guess what you said were true, its easy to forgive some1 but hard to forget when that some1 you trusted hurt you. I admitted to my mistake and SWEAR i will never do it again. but of cos, how to trust right ? likewise, you hurt me before with all the awful words. and now, when those sweet little stuff you say to me makes me feel love but at the same time i wonder if its true words coming from you. I wanna thank you for all the really nice thing you have been doing for US( me&babytai ), all the daily reminders, all the naggings i got from you. Yes, its annoying at times but i know you care. I have been stayin at your place for 2 weeks and i really enjoy waking up every single day either you kissing me on the forehead before you leave for sch or you sleeping soundly beside me. And of cos, I love it that you are hugging me and cuddling me up to bed EVERY SINGLE NIGHT. I do hope that you would continue do it even after our Marriage. I promise and swear that, that mistake will NEVER EVER HAPPEN again.
Loved ♥