♥ Friday, September 03, 2010
Im suppose to be busy doing my monthly report now. but I wanna blog sth before heading to get things done. Last night, I had a little chat with "him". and he told me this, "you are between my fren and gf" I was quite confused over what he meant. whats "between fren and gf ?" In my mind, the only thing i can come up with are Fuck Buddy and Fling. he wants to be more den fren but yet dun wan to be in a r/s which means he wanan do everything like a normal couple would do without any commitment. Am i wrong to say this ? Correct me if im wrong, but after last night. I actually realise how important am i to him. He said that he didnt treat me as 1, but from the way he put things and how he actually act. Its no wonder i would think this way, Next week will be the last week/chance i would give. As after last night's conversation, I felt devastated. No one would understand how painful I felt unless you have been through it. I guess I am dumb, soooo dumb that I actually willing to forgive him. When I was all alone in my room last night, I finally realise I should just wait. Wait for some1 that is willing to love me whole heartedly. Wait for some1 that wants to have me in their life instead of me waiting to get into his and him using me. taking advantage of my goodness. Girls like me ought to be given a tight slap to wake up from such guys. yeah. so that roughly ends what I wanna say for my feelings.
Today is finally Friday, am gonna head out to have lunch with JH and Pamela. After that Im gonna stay home tonight. YES! Im gonna stay home. Wanna save money so no more clubbing. Tml, am gonna head to bugis for KOI den to IT Fair, gonna be a delivery Girl delivering KOIs to fellow junoirs and Cousin. Wanna try to do some shopping for sandels. My sandels damn chui already. Gilson turns 20 tml, gg to his BBQ at WestCoastPark with Bestie and other Sec sch mates. Haven seen those boys for like years ? they are always sooo busy. hopefully tml will be a good night (: den comes Sunday, Meeting Fiona at TPY station at 12pm. gonna get koi before headin to JY's place. Fiona is getting her pedi done, while me... Im doing either overlay/extensions.. My Birthday nails ! yippee!! haven got my nails done since CNY. so ya, shall pamper myself (: I hope you all would have a gooood weekend too!
Loved ♥