♥ Monday, November 30, 2009
okie. another week of not bloggin anything.
it had been a week of hell.
went thru de hardest stage of life.
which is admittin to a mistake and facing it.
it hurts to lie to some1 i lurve.
but i believe it hurts more to be lied by some1 you lurve and trust so much.
the whole of last week.
Sweetheart was on urgent leave, due to some problems i caused.
and he spent every single moment wid me.
makin sure i get back up on my feet after this fall.
it had been miserable for both of us.
both very emotionally dependin on each other for support.
it was hard. very hard. i had to admit.
but both of us kept it within us and put up a brave front.
till now i believe we are still holding on each other.
givin each other the support we need.
after 1 week of being together. being in each other arms.
today, my dear boy had to book in.
i felt terrible. suddenly my heart sank.
we parted at de train station.
trained back. smsin sweetheart on de way back..
fell asleep. and i dreamt that sweetheart was beside me.
until when i woke up to realise it was all a dream.
it felt so real. i felt his warmth. i knew i did.
i feel pretty much confused now.
i dunno where to head. sweetheart will be on duty.
which means i wont be seeing him for de next 11 days.
by den. it will be mid of dec.
and soon. 2010 will be approaching.
den CNY will be coming.
in a blink of an eye. Sweetheart will be headin to thailand for 1 month plus.
how im not going to miss him ? it took me sometime before i can get use to him having duty.
and now he is gg overseas again.
it kindda reminds me de first time we knew each other.
we decided to give each other some time.
and dat since Sweetheart will be in brunei.
it shd show if i do lurve him to wait for him.
and i manage to do so. and it was so hard.
and now. AGAIN ?! i duno how to go thru this agony again.
my heart just hurt upon thinkin about thailand
but yet im glad when Sweetheart is back. 3 more months to ORD.
will be seeing my Boy in his red beret and dressed smartly in his no. 1? is this wad they call ?
i guess so. (: im just lookin forward to that day..
and de month he ord. is the month we wil have our first anniversary.
hopefully things will go smoothly for de both of us.
kindda bullshit alot. but bloggin do help me relax and let my dear boy
knows wad im thinkin. widout me telliin him directly ?! XD
okie larx. i wanna call him and have a little chat before i meet him in my dreamland.
(: good night ppl !
Loved ♥
♥ Tuesday, November 24, 2009
lots of things have been happening.
anger. sadness. confusion. and lots more.
being threaten.
i cant believe. some1 actually threaten me.
and den say he didnt threaten.
how cool ?!
and den. now he is like tellin every1 what a bitch i am ?!
fcuk can !
he cares about his "face" and den make up stories.
wad a loser !!and to think he even act cool and say.
he may wan to beat my bf&me up if he sees us.
please.. this is Singapore. Wad can you do to us ?! -.-
Loved ♥
♥ Wednesday, November 18, 2009
im back !
dun have anything to blog for de past few days.
thus de lack of updates.
and so. now im waitin for mth end to come.
which means pay day!! (:
gosh. im like going to spend everything.
have to many things i need&want !!
-Laptop
-Camera
-Handphone
-More Clothes !
i think i shd start doing some part time job to actually earn more.
which means lesser time wid sweetheart ! ):
Sweetheart wil be bookin out today.
hopefully he could get de bed he wanted when we went to ikea de other day.
its quite pretty (:
and cant wait to sleep in it.
at least we dun have to squeeze in de small little beddy !
there is lotsa things i wanan do.
but cant due to time&money.
realise lots of my frens are getting married.
and yes i envy them.
but yes, i need to find de right person too.
hopefully. time will show me who i really need in my life now.
wad i really wan my life to be...
Loved ♥
♥ Monday, November 09, 2009
Loved ♥
♥ Sunday, November 08, 2009
These photos were taken a couple of weeks ago.
we were damn bored.
and den sweetheart decided to drink martell.
and so i decided on playin card games instead of just drinkin for no reason.
thus we started playin and drinkin.
at first i was winnin. but den i started losin. ):
and drank till i was drunk. i seriously think i got drunk.
glad i didnt had hangover de next day.
Loved ♥
♥ Wednesday, November 04, 2009
HELLO !
im back.
but den for some reason blogger is failing on me.
anyway, haven did any blogging since my first day at work.
work has been quite good.
boss treats me real nice.
teaching me alot of things every single day !
im really very thankful !
hopefully i have found a job that will do me good (:
im workin for 7 hrs every day !
9.30-5.30 lunch break at 12.30-1.30
so cool right ?
better den The Box.
pay also higher den that.
plus work there everytime have to lie to customers.
seriously de clothes material arent good.
and de clothes is damn ugly lorx. only once in awhile den nice.
dunno why got ppl wan to buy de :/
enough of all this shit.
im glad i found this job and so glad that accepted me (:
its wed already ! tml is thurs !
sweetheart is bookin out tml. will meet him after my work.
(:(:(:
i shall try to upload de photos (:
Loved ♥
♥ Tuesday, November 03, 2009
Our Photos ♥
Loved ♥
To have a Happy Family