♥ Wednesday, September 02, 2009
Its a week exactly to my birthday.
which mean i was supposed to get married in a week's time.
haiss~
it just pain me to think about de date.
every1 thinks im happy wid my new r/s but who knows im sufferin instead?
it hurts so much im always tearin.
i just hope after that date things will get better ?
guess it still not my time bahx.
i wonder when will i find that guy that can walk thru my whole life wid me.
ppl must be thinkin im crazy thinkin of marriage at such young age.
but no1 knows wad i have been thru.
i always long for family love. have family outings every weekend.
or mayb just a dinner will do.
i nv had this.
i cant even rmb when was de last time i had dinner wid my whole family.
some mayb sayin cny.
fyi. i dun even have my whole family sittin at de table havin reunion dinner.
all i ever had from my family was quarrels.
i nv had my brothers to dote on me.
i envy ppl wid brothers that cared so much for them.
i envy ppl for having outings wid their family regularly.
i envy ppl able to have supportive family by their side.
i nv once at all these.
and i long for it.
de only way that it could happen is by havin my own family.
and giving my kids wad i nv once had.
showerin them wid love that i nv once had.
haiss~ i just hope god will just let me find de right person.
thou i know such thing cant be rush. but i am willing to wait. (:
just dun wanna wait too long (;
Loved ♥